RED FLAGS!!

So as I told you in my previous post I had met a young man that was mention worthy. Growing up I listened to my mom over and over agian say "theres a few red flags" when giving advice to my sister on men she was dating. In talking to my mother and gushing over my crush she with her amazing words of wisdom uttered those five words "theres a few red flags." I love my mom for this advice I think its hilarious and thanks to her I will always be able to recognize "those few red flags."

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the red flags wont stop me!!

When it Rains it Poors!

So to update all four of my followers I have been settled in Dallas for almost a month now and I must say its very nice. I am attending a sinlges ward that is very large and full of very goodlooking men. I have been hit on by a few men and I would like to share my experience. First of all there is Cecil and ladies if the name does not get you goin then your missing out. My first experience with cecil was hearing him yell at the entire sunday school class for being too dirsuptive and that he was tyring to feel the spirit. Did I mention this was Cecils first sunday! Yes! the ladies were flocking to him!! That sunday I just happen to have my hair in a low side pony tail with a flower placed next to my ear. While standing in the hall a random young man walked by touched my flower, told me he liked it, and continued walking without introducing himself in any way. Nice meeting you to random man! This young man set the way for Cecil to approach me! Cecile turned to me and with both of his hands grabbed mine and said " I have to agree your hair is placed quit nicely!" Although Cecil might sound like a total stud there has yet to be a spark between us. I also happen to meet two young men at an activity who started the conversation by asking me if my hair was my natural color! I HATE THIS QUESTION!! No its not my natural color. To me its like asking are you boobs real! UGH! Althought these guys were very pleasent once again no spark!Then there is Eugene who happens to be our computer tech guy at work. Once again SEXY NAME!! Eugene happens to be goodlooking and just happen to give me his number and informed me if I needed a tour guide of Dallas to let him know. Now Eugene had a pinky toe in the door but then he went and called me sweetie pie that was it for me. Then there is one of my sisters friends named Adam who is a great guy and is full of lots of fun ideas of things to do and will make for a good friend. So I ask you I go through a total dry spell for almost a year and all of a sudden there is men everywhere. I dont get it! What am I doing right this time! But I am not complaining. I will leave you with a good little bit of news. THere is one young man who has peeked my interest extremely and I his! I wont say much about him other then I think he is great! I am not one to kiss and tell ;)

I am BACK!!

So its time for my monthly, well okay every other month entry. I struggle with finding the time, strength, and creativity for this blog since I work 40 hrs a week and go to school full time. I am tired but I must say I am pretty proud of myself I just bought myself a new laptop and am so super excited about it. It is the best and most rewarding feeling to be able to provide for yourself not only in the needs area but also in the wants. My theme song is "All the women INDEPENDANT"! Thats me!! So anyways things are going great lately. The single life has been good to me lately. Not too many heartbreaks to report! I have had a few fellas come and go but none that have caught this eye. I think sometimes the hardest part is not only being alone but also having no one that you have a crush on. Half the fun is when you can gush over someone all the time. Its been A LONG LONG LONG time since I have had that butterfly in the stomach feeling and OH! How I MISS it!! I hope all that will change real soon with the move to Dallas this summer. I have decided after having an empiphony one day that I should up and move to Dallas and live with my sister for the summer. I am very fortunate that things are coming together for me. I have a place to live, my job has several connections with salons over there and I actually have an interview with them this friday so I am very excited. But I must say the one thing I am most excited about is the dating possibilities. I have always been very skeptical and realist about my love life. I sometimes struggle with the fact that I dont believe that love really exist for me. Yes maybe for others but not for this hard to please girl. BUT.... ladies for some reason something has just flipped in my mind. I am daydreaming! I think for a while I forgot that this thing called love is possible. That there are men out there who know how to sweep a girl off her feet. Now I am not saying that the future Mr. Matthews is in Dallas but for the first time in a long time I am excited about the possibilities!! Maybe just maybe my knight and shining armor is in TEXAS!!

I am my own Best Friend!

Alright Alright Alright! My mom has been bugging me to post a new blog and since its been two months since my last one and I actually have followers I will post a new one. First I must say I am a little excited that I have two followers because I feel like a bit of a celebrity. So shout out to Vanessa and Tammy!!! Anyways this blog is gonna be a little bit somber tonight for my heart is very heavy. Although I do enjoy being single there are at times I am still very lonely. I recently turned twenty four and while I am very grateful that I have had another year on this earth I cant help but wonder how much longer? How much longer do I have to wait to experience this myth called "LOVE". How much longer do I have to wait to hear those three words? How much longer do I have to wait to feel a tender kiss or a warm embrace? How much longer do I have to wait to have a confidant and a best friend? How much longer? And no matter how many people try to tell me "Oh it will happen for you one day" or try to give some words of advice they think will soothe my troubled heart, the pain is still here. It has been a while since I have felt this loneliness. The last six months I have been extremely happy and truly embraced the single life. And then it all went to crap! lol! Someone came into my life and shook things up! And thats all I will say about him! Dont wanna give too much away! But I will say that I had to make a choice and for once I did not fantasize what could be! I faced the facts and did what was best for me. I am my own best friend and I am gonna take care of me. I did care for this person very much but I LOVE myself more and I am what matters. I know it will take some time to get back to the happy fun loving girl who loved to big single but for now I am sad! I am patiently waiting for someone to finally walk through the door and realize that there is someone in here that is worth being loved and has so much love to offer back!